I swear, i don't think i'll ever really understand anyone. How can someone tell you that they really care about you as a person and a friend, and treat you like you don't matter? That one thing that is really minor can totally change the way they view you. Seems like he was just looking for an excuse. I would've preferred that he just told me that things had moved too fast and he needed time to think about things, instead of making me feel like i was worthless, and that there was something wrong with me.

And then, there are those people that mean well, and tell you that you're awesome and amazing and anyone would be lucky to have you. If that were true, why do I keep getting tossed aside? Either they're lying to me, or i just manage to find the absolute worst people to attempt to date. Which, could be the possibility, i don't have the best track record and everyone has a tendency to question my judgement. But this one had everyone snowed. We all thought that I had finally managed to find a keeper...boy was I wrong!

That's life, I guess! I'm just really tired of feeling like this. I don't open up and let people in and I get told i have a fear of commitment...and when i let people in they stomp all over my heart. I just can't win!