luciddreamer

So, this whole bi-polar thing is wearing on my last nerve. Literally. I'm ready to rip the heads off of everyone around me at the smallest little thing. Well, maybe not rip their heads off, but i'm definitely gonna give them all a piece of my mind. And i'm gonna be loud and mean when i do it. Not that i want to be, but i don't really have a choice. Its either yell and scream or blubber and cry. I handle yell and scream better. I don't like sittin and cryin for no reason, and besides, i do that enough already. Don't need a reason to, i just do.

I guess i should stop being so touchy about some things, but that's what's really hard about this. I don't mean to be touchy, it just happens. Then I become a bitch for no, real, good reason and start pushing the people i care about away from me. Then they wonder what's goin on and whether or not everything's ok between us. I swear, sometimes i feel like i just need to surround myself with only bipolar people, so that way everyone that i spend time with would understand when i'm just having a bad/off day.


me back in the day