lucidd

i was awakened at 5:21 by a knoc knock knocking at my door. it took me a while to figure out where clothes were and put them on. by then the knocker was back in his car in my parking spot. curious i called out, hello? after a pause they asked about someone or something i had not heard of before. sorry i said, and...
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subtle mediocrity exudes from my very being
a placeholder for greatness not yet tapped
i know i see things differently
but how well do i see them, really
what good is vision without action
am i foolish
am i lucky
or am i trapped
in my contentment
the sun sets
and only in this darkness
do i feel at home
its really not that dark...
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[time to rant]
holy crap am i burnt out with this damn tomb im modeling. ive been unwrapping and texturing the past two days and i have to setlle for it not looking as good as i want because theres just no time. this one class has successfully monopolized all of my homework time. ive already worked 14 hours on it this week alone. i...
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ack i was gonna write something but it turned to crap.

hmm imagine that, troubles with the voting in florida? who couldve seen that comin. crap im all worried about the election. its not like itll make a personal impact on me very much either way, but bush just makes us look like an ass. and im freakin hippie.
progress on my website! its not much but its all i needed to feel compelled to work...
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[and allow me to reiterate]
enlightenment through a hazy sequence of happenings.
and the sun has begun to rise.
its 7am. i didnt mean to stay up this late.
now i just wish someone was up to going to denny's cause i wants me some breakfast.
its lite out and thats confusing. i almost want to say fuck it and just go for the day,...
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[morning ramble]
even my dreams taunt me
shouldnt my subconscious be on my side?
i dreamt:
i was robbed
i had a love
i ate at wendy's
i remember only fragments but i know there was more
than just waiting for my friend's order of cheesy fries

interruptions this morning included:
phone call 1: looking for someone who no longer lives here
guest 1: beezer...
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ever get so fucked up that you feel like the universe just slowed to a near halt around you and your thoughts were happening in bullet time? not being like oh shit man im wasted woooo! and passing out, but a feeling of understanding that you know how the world works and that it all makes sense... and then passing out.
needless to say i...
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teaser up for site.
not much else to report.