lucidd

[simple & truth]

last nite i dreamt of you and i
a cliched setting, you about to fly
our hands touch
my stomach drops
we're at the end, no words are said
just one warm hug, 3 lockings of lips
an all knowing smile,
have a nice trip.

[why wake up]

the drive home from Sunrise was ironically set in a moonlit landscape. also to be noted, i opted to not play gameboy the return trip and went into a triplike state. i was psyched that we could puff in the car on the way too. i dunno, it was probably the scenery. this one valley on US 60 is crazy at nite, especially with a...
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sleeplessness
this rest unfinished
a toss and a turn
and sheets are thrown
im up again

stillness of the nite
my apartment barely lit
a deficit in my attention
eyes wont stay shut
and im up again

sans hope
my thoughts are scattered
like dreaming, barely lucid
still without control
and im up
again.



random insomnia. i just wanna sleep. motoko's squeaking about playing fetch,...
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[jolly good]
ahh the xmas season is upon us, time to lock all our doors, board up our windows and turn on the motion sensor defense units, for robot santa rides on the eve of xmas.
my life has reached a comfortable level. i feel satisfied in my existense. contentment is all i really want. its already fluttered past once, a relapse into fear and...
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[rebirth]
there it is i swear to fuck.
what?
that thing right there, its like glowing.
for real? where?
hmm, maybe its just me.
maybe its just everyone else.
no seriously, you dont see it?
no. what is it?
its like, awareness or something.
umm, weird.
yeah i know.
see if you can get it.
naw, ill let it be. itll come to me when...
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salvation

leaving for the NC tomorrow. thanksgiving w/ family and all that. catch up on the books ive been meaning to read. get some quality time in with my GBA too. i had to play w/ my cat extra since ill be gone, and now ive got a fresh variety of cuts and bites whose stings will remind me of lil moto the misfit. i...
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saw waking life last nite, its title alone is very appropriate for my current state of life. the sleep plan continues well. the trick for me is to stay up late when i HAVE to wake up early, almost like a shock treatment. just get too little sleep until 7-8 hours is glorious.
ive been trying to work hard, but after a certain amount of...
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okay so coffee doesnt work for me, it seems my stomach just cant handle it. i had some this morn, and still dont feel great about it. this strikes me as too bad, cause i like the coffee and the sweet sweet artifical energy it provides. total sleep last nite: 5 hours. i overdid the reduction, but feh.

oh this sleep
must be defeated
before ive bled
my life to deletion

my nemesis is one called somnus
the evil deity of the subconscious toys with me, imprisoning me without my consent. try as i may my fight falters, and asleep i lay too long. i shall rise against and overcome and triumph and see success. if only i could open my eyes, stand...
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le tigre fuckin wooo.
sorry anthesis, dont wanna rub it in. but they rocked. chadwick and i contest they should have played a longer set, but still. i wanna go to a big fuckin outdoor show where i can lay in the grass and smoke a joint, then get up and rock out until i wanted to smoke again. kinda like that ozzfest once. i...
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