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[morning ramble]
even my dreams taunt me
shouldnt my subconscious be on my side?
i dreamt:
i was robbed
i had a love
i ate at wendy's
i remember only fragments but i know there was more
than just waiting for my friend's order of cheesy fries

interruptions this morning included:
phone call 1: looking for someone who no longer lives here
guest 1: beezer...
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ever get so fucked up that you feel like the universe just slowed to a near halt around you and your thoughts were happening in bullet time? not being like oh shit man im wasted woooo! and passing out, but a feeling of understanding that you know how the world works and that it all makes sense... and then passing out.
needless to say i...
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teaser up for site.
not much else to report.

[the laughing hanged man]

swings sidely,
arc shifting,
nexus breaking.
a cornered smirk,
defiance emerges,
this ghost knows no mortality.

[i enjoy this all too much]

rain, rain
please stay all day
and never fucking go away

so its rainin in phoenix. doesnt happen often so when it does im happy. im a rainy person by nature. think its the brit in me.
quinne has a new set today. thats always cool.
broke down and bought the $30 climbing post for mah cat. it goes to the ceiling. hopefully she'll like...
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subtle contentment creeps back into my conscious.
its origin apparent.
potential. so much.
stars aligning.
the cosmos must move faster,
but theyre already out of control.

[mediocre haiku]
i eat teddy grahams
i eat them in my bed yeah
im hardcore like that
[inspired by true events!]

[just trying to stay busy]
so my cat has earned the title assassin because she hides around corners waiting to pounce, and she seems to be a ruthless killing machine. also shes way too loud to be a ninja. this weekend i am helper lucid. i worked at school for almost 7 hours yesterday, then went to help paint an apartment, and im helping people...
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[nomadic existence]
hard to be metaphorical when i feel like this. utter poop. i give up. my haunting will turn passive and drinking is quickly becoming my drug of choice (adjustment assistant). that and lots of loud angry music. air guitar while my cat stares at me, questioning my goofy human behavior. i think the cycle has begun anew. i suppose all i can do...
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"Everything is energy. The whole universe is energy. The social base of our perception should be the physical certainty that energy is all there is. A mighty effort should be made to guide us to perceive energy as energy. Then we would have both alternatives at our fingertips."
-don Juan Matus

[interstellar pondering]
two satellites revolve independantly, each one confined to revolution around a planet shrouded from a dying sun. their axis are different, their orbits strikingly similar. it is not without reason that eventually their paths will intersect, a shattering of particles and an explosion of energy. all other existence pauses. a residual wave is emitted. this echo will travel infinitely, not confined to space...
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laundry day. woot. i atually have to go put shit in the dryer right now. hope i have enough quarters. i probably should have checked before starting this whole fiasco. ahh hindsight, what i wouldnt do to master your boundaries. this quarter should be hellish. im graduating soon. that means portfolio quality pieces. the threat of a salary driven life is all to imminent.