luci_demonic

I'm at a point in my life where all decisions are hard, where one wrong choice will alienate me from all I hold dear. I hate this feeling. I HATE IT! If I try to purse A I might lose B (maybe not). If I choose B I might be falling into a failsafe and/or lonely mistake which could also loose me B. Also by choosing B I could miss out on A which could turn out awesome for me...I dont know it's all Ive been thinking about for days... all day everyday every moment it's running through my head! ARRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG I need a therapist or something to deal with all this crap in my head. Sometimes I wish I had lived a life where I stayed put forever rather then leaving all the time or having other always leaving. I think sometimes it fucks up my relationship skills with people. Like for one my problem with getting close to folks. Or with communicating how I feel. I know one look at my face should be obvious enough (I have great facial expressions.) but sometimes people cant see those and those dont give all the emotion I dont know Im ranting and in a weird place. I hate this place! HOW DO I GET OUT?!?!?!?