luci

simply because i adore this photo

so. things are better...i decided to take the advice of many and turn my journal "members only" and each time i write that i am automatically made to think of the 80's jacket...i had 1 in periwinkle...

yesterday was a horrid day for me. i am not sure exactly why. last fri was the full moon (along with the dark side)so i t couldnt have been that... i just had this overwhelming amount of anxiety...i was anxious about money and my job, anxious about friends and the drama that seems to find and follow me like a fucking apparition ... ALWAYS guilty by association!!!
...about becoming "hollywood" like the people that i despise and being trapped in LA when perhaps i should be taking up shop elsewhere...about losing my east coast soul and for the lack of snow...but mostly, mostly i was anxious about a boy. and you know the boy of which i am referring to...
so in my weakened mental state i decided to view some TV on DVd in the form of my old friends carrie, miranda, samatha and charlotte...
moments into the intro i realised that HELLO the show takes place in NYC!!! AHHH torture! but i pressed on nonetheless...

earlier that day i had tetxted a secret friend to inform him of my mental duress...he put out a call to a special someone who then contacted me in regard to easing the latter...AHH BLISS!!
and so today i had a revelation of sorts...STOP OBSSESSING!! yes yes this is advice that you have all bestowed upon me in recent past but i have been quick to ignore (as i am a gemini)
and i think that i may have found some peace. im no less smitten but i am slightly more informed which of course is a sigh of relief on my part... i can conquer this thing yet! i think that there may be more mutual possibilities than i realised before. but enough on that...

in other news. my car died. not sure what happened. it just wouldnt start! so i put a call in to my fabulous new boss and she helped me ask her friend/asst/other producer to drive the 16 miles from the valley into LA just to give me a jump start. thats good people!

i also spoke with my family today for an alarming amount of time that actually remained pleasant. i debated explaining my new employment to my mum but chickened out and just told my father...he is far more liberal. i mean he was in the peace corps for gods sake!!

and so for 2 long days i have managed to stay in. a major accomplishment as of late.
tomorrow i am back to work! a photo shoot with my boss and a new energy drink that is owned by a famous bass player... smokey eyes and rocker make up! i cant wait!