lucenteen

i got a job i work at a movie theater its ok i guess it pays the bills. it doesnt really leave time for much else i mean not like i do much else except wallow in my own self pitty wich dont get me wrong is ok to do like evey now and then but not every day i really need to get out and get a life or get laid hell i dont know

i dont know if i want to drop my acount or not im like really debating it i mean i would like to stay cause i enjoy reading caz and cinder journals they seem to have like all the fun and i kinda enjoy the new girls but i mean they arnt like that edge they seem kind main stream eh i dont know


i got a mini disc player so i have been making all kinds of play list god only know why.

and now for your moment of zen



i feel it inside the anger the rage the voice of what i want to say i fear to let it out i fear what will happen i fear the pleasure i might have what will i do will i hold it inside for ever or will it finaly comsume me and take total control and when that fight for control comes will i put up a fight i dont know mabey it will be easier just to let it win i have nothing to fight for yet i want to be a shogun i mean they have a purpuse they fight to live and they live to fight yet i dont have a purpous i am just here what am i meant to do in this life i want the know the end of my story now i am tired of writing this boring story i want excitment i want advinture i want love that what a truely want i want to be loved by some one loved for who i am and what i will become i want to love them right back i want to know that bliss and i want to know it now


ah what do u care u just come back time and time again to see the train wreck that my life is i guess it could be amussing to onlookers hell i know if i were u i would stop and stair at me and go what the fuck happend to him




well that going to wrap it up for me i will try and update soon cause so many come and read this lmao