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I'm not happy right now. I'm quietly sitting here watching the days go by and looking forward to the day Andy gets back so I can go back to Ames and be done with this place. I never knew it was possible to feel so awkward in your own home.

I arrived home to drop my dog of so I could go to Ohio for...
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Wow. So the highlight of last night, or rather this morning, was a trip to the emergency room. For depression. Because I'm so desperate for help. The health center on campus said they were booked past Christmas and if I wanted to see a nurse instead of a doctor then I had to wait for one, which could take up to three hours. I'm sorry,...
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oh yeah, i moved.

Friday, although I was having internet issues up until today. So I logged onto SG and got a wonderful back-up of new photos to look at. Yay.

There are some neat-o brick walls in my living room, I may have to utilize them in my photo-set. Unless of course there is a warm day in the near future and I get...
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I am sitting here impatiently. I want to lay down and go back to bed because I'm not feeling 100% well. I move into my new apartment tomorrow. Next Monday I take Phooka to the vet again, he has an ear infection. I have a massive migrane. I am terribly poor. I am getting my tattoo soon and I'm excited as hell.

That is all.

I am mentally fucked over. Hah. I hate the fact that my mind feels the need to take me on this sickening sort of roller coaster ride to hell. I hate the fact that depression ever reared its ugly head in my life. I don't understand, why me? I guess it could be because my grandmother (maternal) was depressed and committed suicide. Hmmmm...lucky me...

I'm...
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Tomorrow I have an exam to take in the morning. Then its off to Iowa City for a few hours to visit the Animal Shelter, and possibly pick out my future pup. Then its back to Ames, off to work, then mostly likely off to my 'kind-of' apartment to see my roommate and tell her officially that I am moving out and getting an on-campus...
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So apartment problems galore. My room mate may not be wanting to give up the apartment because she's afraid of any consequences. Whatever, I'm past the point of caring right now. I don't want to struggle with rent payment anymore, I want to move on campus and have the whole rent thing taken care of in one payment. And I want to get my puppy....
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I'm pretty terrible at this whole college thing. I haven't been to class in about a week. I've stopped going to Spanish all together. Taking it this semester was a mistake. I should have waited. I don't really have a desire to take it anymore anyway. I'll learn what I can from my Spanish-speaking friends and be content with that. Next year I plan on...
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