There are some time when I can't help but feel completely fucking bitter. Yeah, this very moment is one of those times. And yet at the same time I want nothing more than to curl up with somebody in bed and just spend the next few days there.
This song makes me want to lay outside in the sun....
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I would dig a hole all the way to China,
Unless of course I was there,
Then I'd dig my way home.
If by digging, I could steal,
The wind from the sails of the greater men who ruled the world.
Still you my best friend,
And after a good good drunk,
You and me,
Wake up and make love after a deep sleep.
Where I was dreaming,
I was dreaming of a dreamgirl, dreamgirl, dreamgirl, dreamgirl.
Well I was feeling like a creep,
As I watched you asleep.
Face down in the grass,
In the park in the middle of a hot afternoon.
Your top was untied,
And I thought 'how nice it'll be the fall of your sweat down your spine.'
You're my best friend,
Or after a good good drunk,
You and me,
Wake up and make love after a deep sleep.
Where I was dreaming,
I was dreaming of a dreamgirl, dreamgirl, dreamgirl, dreamgirl.
Caught by the wave my back to the ocean,
It knocks me off feeling, just as I find my footing.
Here you come again, dreamgirl, oh Dreamgirl, that's all dreamgirl, but I Dreamgirl, dreamgirl, oh wait dreamgirl,
In my dreams dreamgirl, I'm dreaming dream girl,
Deep in deep in.
Yep...these papers are kicking my ass and the stress of it all is keeping me awake. I'm really tempted to drive across town to see somebody right now...and just lay there with the music playing in the background. But I know they only care to a certain extent and then I'm on my own. Or at least I think, that's what I tell myself because its easier that way. Its easier than risking it all.
I'm probably making no sense and I can't say I care.
I don't like the feeling when I left last time. It was cold and left me shivering despite the fact the breeze was warm. I wanted to stay and I wanted scream, cry, apologize and sleep comfortably for once. No, we're still not making any sense.
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standing on the edge of morning
scent of sex and new found glory
playing as she's pulling back her hair
she drives away
she's feeling worthless
used again but nothing's different
she stayed the night
but knows he doesn't care
home by three
deafening quiet
the porch light's off
yes they forgot it
she'd cry herself to sleep
but she don't dare
then she wants to be a model
she wants to hear she's beautiful
she's beautiful
i want to save you
i want to save you
i need you
save me too
i want to save you
dressed by dawn and out the door
no light
she memorized the floor
so she could leave without being detected
she works till three
it's uniform
she dreams that he'll come by the store
she prays for days
the boys mean she's protected
and she wants someone to see her
she needs to hear she's beautiful
she's beautiful
i want to save you
i want to save you
i need you
save me too
i want to save you
and she won't sleep
she won't sleep
and she won't sleep
at all
i want to save you
i want to save you
i need you
save me too
i want to save you
(let me save you)
I think its probably time to down some sleeping pills and try to sleep this off.
I need a haircut...
