ltrain

All sorts of smarts, puter is fixed, i think. Whatever.

Ya know, I'm writing this cause I'm alittle intoxicated. Therefore, my shyness weakens and my balls grow. Yep, you read that correctly. I'm about to talk serious for once. I feel closure with my ex-girlfriend finally! She decides to grace me with her presence after 2 yrs of being broken up. But I needed this cause I realized, why we broke up and that I don't love her the same. I was babysitting the idea of being alone, therefore I held onto knowing that she was the one thing that loved me back. I was starting to think no girl was ever gonna like me and I'd be alone for the rest of my life. But I can sit here, smile and be happy with the thought of being alone. Things fall into place when they are ready and I know I'll find a chick who I can love and love me back. But I don't think that time is now. Its impossible. If I can't be completely happy with myself, what makes me think I can make someone else happy. Anyhow, that's my 2nd chapter for the new year. I started the re-evalution process...

Don't you love to sit in your room in darkness with the only background noise is the music that is faintly playing out of your speakers and it echos off the walls so it sounds more intense?

What song would you listen to in this scenario?

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Azure Ray - No Signs of Pain

Standing in front of you
They fade into the wall
And leave behind nothing
Nothing at all

I know i don't understand how they forget
How some will just pass us by
And take what they can get
I know i don't understand how weightless they must be
Without feeling

Grasping with my fingernails
As they tear through your skin
Leaving no signs of pain
No wounds to mend

I know i don't understand how they forget
How some will just pass us by
And take whay they can get
I know i don't understand how weightless they must be
Without feeling

I know i don't understand how they forget
How some will just pass us by
And take whay they can get
I know i don't understand how weightless they must be
Without feeling
Without feeling
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