ltrain

Dear Journal,
I had alot to say today, I typed it all out, reread it but I hit delete. So much for trying to be open today. I'm learning though but sometimes being reserved is a virtue.

My quote of the day:
" Do I just like her cause I'm lonely OR do I just feel lonely cause she does not like me"

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Sinead O'Connor - Jealous

You're jealous
You just can't stand to see me get along without you
Like I do, you told me to
Now you're jealous
You don't know how hard it was to be alone without you
And wanting you, like I do
I would have stayed if you'd wanted
Would have been willing
But you said I treat you so badly
I can't be forgiven
You know I have done anything
To make it through with you
But I don't deserve to be lonely
Just cuz you say I do
You're jealous
You don't know how hard it is to be a woman in love with you
When you're so cruel, and so jealous
You don't think about anybody's feelings but your own
Are you coming home?
I would have stayed if you'd wanted
Would have been willing
But you said I treat you so badly
I can't be forgiven
You know I would have done anything
To make it through with you
But I don't deserve to be lonely
Just cuz you say I do
So if you're gonna go you've gotta go and if you're stayin stay
Cuz I can't take the pain you keep leavin when you go away
If you're gonna go you've gotta go and if you're stayin stay
Cuz I can't take the pain you keep leavin when you go away
I don't deserve to be lonely
I don't deserve to cry
I don't deserve to be lonely

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I have been feeling this way for 3yrs now. This song is too good to be true.