lozzy

it's been a long week. I'm getting better at calming myself down when i get really fucking frustrated with graham. He drives me up the wall... i'm so sick of him thinking that he's the only person that affected by his actions... ummm how about me?? I gave him a letter about 3 weeks ago, told him exactly how i felt, and what i had been feeling over the past year and a half etc... well he still has not got back to me... he needed time to think about it...well i'm tired of waiting... i'm tired of being put in this position. I wonder if he ever thinks about how this "time" might be affecting me at all. But now, again all i do is just calm myself down and not do anything stupid like sending him a message telling him his time is up!

Gar! might go for a walk and buy some bright red hair dye... i need a change!