Weekend was shit. I was just walking around feeling lost. I am so tired of putting up with his shit... i'm so tired of waiting for my phone to ring, for him to call me back, or make some kinda of acknolodgment that i'm here. But no, i'm just a fool sitting by the phone that's never going to ring. I wrote a letter to him over a week ago, he seemed happy enough about it.. said he was going to really think it over and that he wanted some time, but i'm getting the feeling that he's just using the letter as an excuse not to see me. I'm just feeling really ignored... and it's making me really fucking mad and i can't help it. Yeah i overreact, and i can't fucking stop it! This whole situation has turned me into a hateful bitch and i don't like it.... but i can't seem to pull myself away! I'm just sitting here in limbo land, and it's driving me crazy! i'm constantly up and down and sideways unsure of my place. I feel like i just wanna punch the damn wall! ahhhgggghghghg 
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I was having the same kind of thing a week or two ago, and feeling totally shit about it.
What changed it was realising that I fucking rule, or at least that thinking that I fucking rule was probably at least as much fun and no less realistic than thinking that I needed some girl's attention to feel good about myself.
So I started using it like a mantra, walking around: "I fucking rule!". Or breathing in, thinking "I fucking", breathing out, thinking "rule!"
And the whole thing is also funny, so it made me laugh.
What is also fun is deciding you're 40 feet tall, and the combination is even more fun: "I am 40 fucking feet tall! I fucking rule!" Makes walking around through the day like being a superhero.
Anyways, hope you're feeling better soon.. (sends hug)
yeah man, kick it in the junk.