loxie

My relationship is going terribly :/

We've been together a month and i constantly feel stressed. I feel as if he is taking me for a ride. I think he's seeing someone else. And yet, he knows exactly what to say to put it all right again.
He knows how to kiss everything better.

I feel pathetic.

I never wanted to be the little girl who was clinging on, and hanging on a boy's every word.
Yet i can't be without him.
I actually don't know what i'd do.
It's been just one month, and sometimes i wish i'd never met him, and then he wouldn't have this hold over me :/

How this is good for me, or remotely healthy i do not know.
But i've never met anyone who can wrap me around their finger so easily.
He could literally tell me anything and i'd believe it.

How stupid is that?

How stupid am i?