lowcloud

Been feeling very different about music for the last few months but have kept it bottled up and under wraps. I don't know how it all began to change, exactly, I simply didn't care to play as much. Some days I would be all amped simply talking about it with my guitarist and other times I'd get so down on myself that I had no desire to compse, "jam", or couldn't even come up with any bass parts.
Our drummer quit the band last month and although I knew how he felt about performing, and wished I could've done the same at the time, I held out in hopes that a new drummer would mean a new outlook on music for me. So we got a new drummer who I was excited about-- I even set goals in my head although I had all these "musical demons" trollin' around. I went through the motions of playing in a band , while in the back of my head I wanted to make sure my guitarist had a drummer before I bowed out...but I came to the realization that I should not carry on this way anymore.
I quit the band last night and it felt like such a weight taken of my chest.
For the moment it feels that I did the right thing-- no more being false to my bandmates, however, I did the big part (quitting and explanations) via email. The email sat 30 minutes before I hit SEND, but the fact of the matter is that I sent it. For that I was wrong.