oss of appetite..
Current mood: calm
Category: Food and Restaurants
so this thanksgiving has been a quiet one.. usually i hear my cousins screaming at the highest pitch and my aunts answering their high squeels w/ jaws dropped wide open.. i hear my brothers and dad arguing about the most mundane detail of an utterly endless political debate.. i can smell ham w/ pineapple and brown sugar.. the wine flows free and GOOD beer comes out.. the sound of my family laughing and smiling and just content where they are for that day..
i am thankful for those times spent.. this year hasn't been the greatest of years but i feel like things are turning for the better.. i've lost my appetite this year though.. been fightin back the somber feelings all day and was excited to come home and make a single serving thanksgiving dinner actually... i think i need that at this point in my life.. so.. at break from work i ran to the store.. bought 2lb turkey breast, stuffing, scalloped potatoes and all the fixings for green bean casserole.. and i did it all for under 18$.. man im good! actually it probably could've fed about 3 ppl but i need left overs to complete the holiday right..??
usually my blogs are dry and usually antagonistic, hostile and depressing.. but im tryin to change that.. so.. today im thankful that im not homeless..yet.. and that im still managing to somehow hold the little amount of pride i have left at the end of this year.. drink a glass of merlot w/ my thanksgiving dinner made for one + leftovers and watch what's left of the football game in peace...
i think the naive cloud i've had drawn over my eyes for so long is lifting as well... i take after alot of men in my family.. ive had a lot of good examples.. but i think i've taken after my grandfathers pessimism though or at least my idea or interpretation of his pessimism... and it just dawned on me like 2 days ago.....
my grandfather was the head of the pessimists club in his small town in illinois.. for a long time i thought that meant that they just sat around and bitched about everything and anything under the sun...(mostly about republicans)... but in knowing my grandpa and his fun-loving spirit around everything else in his life??? im thinking it was more of boys night out away from the women where they could retreat under the premise that they were just men bitching at each session..... and... (this is where my naive ass cloud lifted)... i think they got together pretending to be grumpy old men under "the pessimists club" title..... and just smoked cigars, played poker or rummy and drank whiskey... i know that sounds dumb that that somehow has changed my perspective on life but it has..
and i know grandpa loved his whiskey but hey... the mans irish christ' sake
oh yeah.. im almost done eating now..
Current mood: calm
Category: Food and Restaurants
so this thanksgiving has been a quiet one.. usually i hear my cousins screaming at the highest pitch and my aunts answering their high squeels w/ jaws dropped wide open.. i hear my brothers and dad arguing about the most mundane detail of an utterly endless political debate.. i can smell ham w/ pineapple and brown sugar.. the wine flows free and GOOD beer comes out.. the sound of my family laughing and smiling and just content where they are for that day..
i am thankful for those times spent.. this year hasn't been the greatest of years but i feel like things are turning for the better.. i've lost my appetite this year though.. been fightin back the somber feelings all day and was excited to come home and make a single serving thanksgiving dinner actually... i think i need that at this point in my life.. so.. at break from work i ran to the store.. bought 2lb turkey breast, stuffing, scalloped potatoes and all the fixings for green bean casserole.. and i did it all for under 18$.. man im good! actually it probably could've fed about 3 ppl but i need left overs to complete the holiday right..??
usually my blogs are dry and usually antagonistic, hostile and depressing.. but im tryin to change that.. so.. today im thankful that im not homeless..yet.. and that im still managing to somehow hold the little amount of pride i have left at the end of this year.. drink a glass of merlot w/ my thanksgiving dinner made for one + leftovers and watch what's left of the football game in peace...
i think the naive cloud i've had drawn over my eyes for so long is lifting as well... i take after alot of men in my family.. ive had a lot of good examples.. but i think i've taken after my grandfathers pessimism though or at least my idea or interpretation of his pessimism... and it just dawned on me like 2 days ago.....
my grandfather was the head of the pessimists club in his small town in illinois.. for a long time i thought that meant that they just sat around and bitched about everything and anything under the sun...(mostly about republicans)... but in knowing my grandpa and his fun-loving spirit around everything else in his life??? im thinking it was more of boys night out away from the women where they could retreat under the premise that they were just men bitching at each session..... and... (this is where my naive ass cloud lifted)... i think they got together pretending to be grumpy old men under "the pessimists club" title..... and just smoked cigars, played poker or rummy and drank whiskey... i know that sounds dumb that that somehow has changed my perspective on life but it has..
and i know grandpa loved his whiskey but hey... the mans irish christ' sake
oh yeah.. im almost done eating now..
Your grandfather probably had a really good time in his club - irony?