terrible night last night. went to a grand puba show, ended up getting drunk, having my friend talk about how the ex came over her house to visit her boyfriend and went online to look at friendster girls with his other buddy.
started crying, had to go to the bathroom and MISSED THE WHOLE PUBA SET to cry in the bathroom stall.
conVINCED that i should go to his house and clock him in the fucking face, and having my girl back me on it, i took stock and called my sister to convice me otherwise.
i can't drink alcohol at ALL when i'm going thru something emotional. i guess we learn the hard way.
i TOTALLY would have never gotten sad or cried or wanted to go to his house to beat him up. wow. i can't believe how sensitive i am to it!
anyways, when i got home, i threw a wooden sculpture he got for me from puerto rico back when we first met out the window and broke it into little pieces.
i felt better, but of course i had dreams of him again....
started crying, had to go to the bathroom and MISSED THE WHOLE PUBA SET to cry in the bathroom stall.
conVINCED that i should go to his house and clock him in the fucking face, and having my girl back me on it, i took stock and called my sister to convice me otherwise.
i can't drink alcohol at ALL when i'm going thru something emotional. i guess we learn the hard way.
i TOTALLY would have never gotten sad or cried or wanted to go to his house to beat him up. wow. i can't believe how sensitive i am to it!
anyways, when i got home, i threw a wooden sculpture he got for me from puerto rico back when we first met out the window and broke it into little pieces.
i felt better, but of course i had dreams of him again....
As far as Sept moving is concerned, we're their. Oh I had a dream While in SC that an invisable ghost/force came into our room and was holding us down to the bed. I was screaming at it, but nothing was coming out. Scary. Had to sleep with the lights on.