show me forgiveness
for having lost faith in myself
and let my own interior up to inferior forces
the shame is endless
but if soon starts forgiveness
the girl might live.
-Bjork
so last night i had another dream...but this time it was about going back to school and the girl i had a crush on in high school was in it!
i had the biggest crush on this girl, Jess, in high school....she looked like kirsten dunst ::swoon::. i never thought i would be the type to crush on a blonde!? anyways, she had curly hair,... Read More
terrible night last night. went to a grand puba show, ended up getting drunk, having my friend talk about how the ex came over her house to visit her boyfriend and went online to look at friendster girls with his other buddy.
started crying, had to go to the bathroom and MISSED THE WHOLE PUBA SET to cry in the bathroom stall.
the dreams are the worst part. Just when you think your moving on, WHACK! A dream comes along and tells you no.
As far as Sept moving is concerned, we're their. Oh I had a dream While in SC that an invisable ghost/force came into our room and was holding us down to the bed. I was screaming at it, but nothing was coming out. Scary. Had to sleep with the lights on.
i guess this has now become my bitchspace. it makes me sick to hear of our mutual friends telling me that they ran into shitface and he asked if they talked to me and then says how he hopes we can be friends and hang out some day. FUCK him. it literally makes me want to throw up on him.
what is the tting over a heartbreak? BOREDOM. and i have LOTS of it. i hate my job, i hate "working" from home and having nothing to do. i hate being bored online. i'm so tired of sending out resumes and not getting any response. ugh. i'm stressed and kinda sad today. i keep having dreams of the ex, in many varied shapes and sizes...and... Read More
I've been on craigslist a lot more than usual, but since I was introduced to the site a few years ago, I head there any time I'm thinking about buying something that costs more than $100 or so. Lately, I've been searching the car & trucks section, since I've been thinking about picking up a used car.
Well, I've recently been on a Jane Austen kick for the past couple of weeks, so I last week I picked up a bunch of movies made from her books:
* Pride and Prejudice - Done by the BBC, a faithful and unabridged(!) adaptation of the book. If you like period pieces that aren't butchered to fit into a 2-hour movie, this is for you. Performances, costumes and such are all excellent. Bit pricier, though, since it's a 2 DVD set, or something like 6 VHS tapes. It runs for 4+ hours.
* Emma - One of Gwyneth Paltrow's earlier films, I haven't gotten to this one, yet.
* Persuasion - Relatively unknown, because it was released the same year as Sense and Sensibility as well as Pride and Prejudice. I watched this last night, but was half-asleep, so I can't commet until I view it again... some advice, don't start watching new movies at 4am and expect to get anything out of it.
* Sense and Sensibility - Well, you've seen this one.
Jane Austen movies are fun, because of the language. I mean, it's 'english', but there's a cadence and useage by the English upper crust that make it nearly as alien as greek or chinese.
oh yeh, so i had a more fully developed idea about the heart broken thing.
i think getting hurt balanced out my karma. it could have been the greatest thing for me. i've often been the heart breaker, but never the one with the broken heart. so maybe having this happen balanced out my karma....maybe i'm going to stumble on the greatest thing next....?
aww!! thank you for the comment in my set thread!!
i'm sorry to hear you have a broken heart. it's the suck. i had one for two years... and i never thought i would ever be able to love and trust anyone again... i was wrong.
i think the next greatest thing in your life will come up and nip you in the ass when you very least expect it.