lovechild

i don't know what's going on. this week has been simulatenously awesome and a wreck.
i got back 2 out of 3 tests i took this week and i made A's on both of them. then i took my osteology quiz today and made an A.
my sales at work have been pretty good. i beat out the sales manager this round.
softball is fun and my team is wonderful.
my brother and dad are moving back to SA which is excellent for both of them - and for me.
but i still feel so bad. i just feel like crying. i am crying.
maybe it's my apartment. i can't wait to be somewhere else.
that's what it is. "i can't wait to be somewhere else"
i need to regroup. everyone keeps talking about the future. i don't want to think about it right now.
the future doesn't exist. i don't know where i'm going. everything is so impermanent.
i feel really alone.
i think i just need to get away from san marcos for awhile or something.

i miss tues and wade and caro and sam
i need someone to take care of me