lovechild

i've felt incredibly disorganized lately. weekdays fly by and weekends are blurs of action between sleep. i feel like it's almost impossible to have nothing to do. i want nothing to do! i want to drop everything for a week. no plans, no pretenses, just breathing.
i'm tired of history classes. i'm dissapointed with my grades (my own fault, i know, which makes it even worse. i'm at school - i need my intelligence validated!). i've got yet another history quiz on wednesday, as well as a history midterm. studying is gross. i just want everything to slow down.
on a neutral note: all of a sudden i'm getting a surge of advertising at work = more money = more chaos and ads and people and payments to keep track of
i don't know how to get out of my little rut. time needs to stop for just a few minutes so i can refocus
i would just go to sleep, but i think my intramural volleyball team is having a practice tonight. aie. i miss my best lady friends
i'm starting to get burnt out. the weather needs to change.