lovebump

So i have tuned the big 30 and unlike many people I do not feel the need to have this grand life transformation. I like to think that I am always a work in progress and try to better myself on a daily basis. I will still be enjoying the things I did in my twentites and so forth.

I am headed to San Franciso in Marchfor the first time, I have always wanted to go explore Alcatraz an the Golden Gate Bridge. I also suggest that anyone who reads this go and view the Bridge, it is a documentary about suicide and the Golden Gate Bridge, it was a very disturbing look at people who want to kill themselves and decide to throw themsevles off the Golden gate Bridge

I actually took the time to apolgize to someone that I had been ignoring for close to 2 years the other day, while I do feel better about this I did not get to fully disclose the reason for the 2 years of hatred which is kind of a bummer since I am sure it will fester inside me. I really liked this girl and instead of telling her I decided that I would not say anything and hoped she got the clues and then when she started blowing me off and paying attention to this walking Ken doll I shut down and went into ghost mode, she did not exist to me and just the thought of her made me sick to my stomach. I had a deep resentment for her for a long time for not seeing what she had in front of her and then taking solace in this doucebags arms. I think I learned from this and will be more open in going after what I want like I do in many other aspects of my life.