I think it is funny how ones own mind can be there greatest enemy. I tend to make things worse by playing the worst case seceranio game in my mind. Maybe I have to much free time to make things worse in my own head.
I am also coming to the conlusion that someone who I thought would be a good friend really does not give a flying fuck about getting to know me. The funny thing is I talked to this person far more when they had a boyfriend then I do now. Maybe it was the thrill of having someting different in their lives and to escape the mundane day to day struggles. I stopped speaking with this person for 2 years and then out of the blue I get an email saying that we should talk. I thought this was great news and now all I do is obsess over what I did to be less intresting to this person. I have accepted the fact that perhaps I was just being used and that people are only placeholders in segments of our lives. I have deleted her phone number and email address, if we are going to be friends then someone else has to start putting in the effort.
On to happier news, I have a massage and facial tomorrow, this will help me relax. I may also go see Misstellica an all female Metallica tribute band at the Hard Rock on Saturday. UFC 100 is on this weekend and I can't wait, so that should passify me for this weekend.
I really need to find me a good women with a whore mouth, In all seriousness a good women would be a welcome addition to my life, I feel that my tragic dating life effects the various social oppurtunites that I am omitted from. I also find it awesom when you show up to a wedding alone and look like a giant dildo stuffing your face with undercooked chicken. Every piece of shit can find a girlfriend but me, what the fuck is wrong with me. Some say I am picky, but why settle for something that you may not want. I am almost 30 and i is just getting sad folks. If someone tells me one more time that the right onw is out there I may kick them in their genitals
I am also coming to the conlusion that someone who I thought would be a good friend really does not give a flying fuck about getting to know me. The funny thing is I talked to this person far more when they had a boyfriend then I do now. Maybe it was the thrill of having someting different in their lives and to escape the mundane day to day struggles. I stopped speaking with this person for 2 years and then out of the blue I get an email saying that we should talk. I thought this was great news and now all I do is obsess over what I did to be less intresting to this person. I have accepted the fact that perhaps I was just being used and that people are only placeholders in segments of our lives. I have deleted her phone number and email address, if we are going to be friends then someone else has to start putting in the effort.
On to happier news, I have a massage and facial tomorrow, this will help me relax. I may also go see Misstellica an all female Metallica tribute band at the Hard Rock on Saturday. UFC 100 is on this weekend and I can't wait, so that should passify me for this weekend.
I really need to find me a good women with a whore mouth, In all seriousness a good women would be a welcome addition to my life, I feel that my tragic dating life effects the various social oppurtunites that I am omitted from. I also find it awesom when you show up to a wedding alone and look like a giant dildo stuffing your face with undercooked chicken. Every piece of shit can find a girlfriend but me, what the fuck is wrong with me. Some say I am picky, but why settle for something that you may not want. I am almost 30 and i is just getting sad folks. If someone tells me one more time that the right onw is out there I may kick them in their genitals