i have felt like shit lately. anger problems stemming from stress, mostly related to money issues. i wish things would go better for me. this was supposed to be MY year. at least that's what the chinese zodiac said. but it's already august & so far my year's been for shit. i don't know what needs to change. i don't know if school will help....
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I slept really late today & now the day is almost over. Inuyasha & I have argued a bit & it caused us to miss a chance at hanging out with a friend today. That sucks balls. I had planned to drive to Tuscaloosa (using the gas money i borrowed from Mom) to ask Ryan or his parents for some money to help us out....
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padre:
i agree you hold so much power over him... you should take advantage of it... he's ducking responsibilites so i couldnt agree more
turbulence:
I like seeing you happy 
Last night I was ready to give up on me & Inuyasha (aka Gabe). He kept telling me he had mixed feelings & that there was another girl in his thoughts. I wanted to hang on, but I thought maybe I had to let go. I couldn't force something that wasn't right. Just as I was about to tell him that he was free to...
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bairdduvessa:
i hope things work out. at least you've still got that smile
iggy:
Ugh. Dads who do't pay child support piss me off. And its been my experience that these dads tend to have the money, they just spend it on themselves, or spend it impressing some other girl, and then say they don't have it. And it seems like no matter how many times you take them to court it it just doesn't matter, they just don't get it, and they still don't pay...
Maybe thats not the case here but it still makes me angry....
Maybe thats not the case here but it still makes me angry....
i got up at noon today. that's early for me. ever since gabriel has been home, he has let me sleep till 2 or 3pm, but today i sent him out early to do some job hunting. we're broke, really broke & bills are not going to stop coming. we're already behind on our power bill. $400 to cover 2 power bills, $200 to cover...
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thefreak:
-TM
-TM
turbulence:
thinking of you!
yesterday was the first day i got out of the house by myself since gabriel has been home. almost instantly, the air felt different. the sun seemed to shine a little brighter. see, it's hard to explain...but i feel like when i'm in this relationship (perhaps any relationship), that i am trapped. then once i finally get time to myself, i find myself preoccupied with...
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thefreak:
Best of luck.
-TM
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turbulence:
Such a cute pic
i got boxing gloves today! they are pink & the proceeds went to the BCF (breast cancer foundation). that makes me SO happy. i am a big supporter. i had to sit out from boxing class for the past 2 days because i was so sore from the first day, but i'll be back at it tomorrow or Monday. tomorrow night is the party, so...
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bairdduvessa:
ilove that pic
turbulence:
Boxer girl 
i guess i haven't posted in a while. i haven't had much online time. gabriel doesn't like me to get online & he's not working yet. my bank fucked me over last week, so now i have to get to town in time to sign up with Compass Bank. i hope they do a better job handling my money. i started boxing class today with...
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bairdduvessa:
wait? what? yo aren't allowed to see people?
polarbear:
You MUST know that what you are saying doesn't sound right.You may not believe it but there is someone out there who you could fall in love with who wouldn't treat you like a piece of property!! Sounds to me like he's immature and insecure so that's why he treats you that way. Either he needs to get the fuck over that shit like now(he won't) or you need to cut your losses(finally) and let him go! You deserve SO much better sweetie 
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bairdduvessa:
best of luck
thefreak:
The beach cures all.
-TM
-TM
i don't want to lose any friends. my friends mean the world to me. this is no overstatement. i know Alex does not read my blogs, but i wanted to say here & now how important his friendship is to me. whether he knows it or not, he has really been there for me over the past month & longer, helping me through the troubles...
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things are so crazy lately. i just found out last night that 2 of my aunts have been sneaking and reading my blogs & then gossiping about it to my mom. it's not cool. i know i put my life out there, but it's mostly for my own logging purposes & 2ndly for helpful comments &/or advice. now my mom wants me t either move...
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turbulence:
Just to clarify - I know this is not her. It just made me think of her
thefreak:
Boob!
-TM
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... and relaxing thoughts.