love_suicide

yesterday i hit an all time low. i won't go into details but it's completely over with me & Gabriel now (since Tuesday). i haven't been able to get out of bed much over the past 2 days & i'm having to keep myself doped up on nerve pills. i almost checked myself into North Harbor Mental Hospital yesterday, but I decided to wait &...
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So, I'm not moving to Pensacola. Gabriel & I are no more. Too many things were telling me that it wasn't right, so I finally told him Goodbye. It wasn't as hard as I thought it would be. I do feel strange & I know it hasn't fully hit me yet. Expect either mania or depression to kick in hard-core in the next day or...
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So, I'm not moving to Pensacola. Gabriel & I are no more. Too many things were telling me that it wasn't right, so I finally told him Goodbye. It wasn't as hard as I thought it would be. I do feel strange & I know it hasn't fully hit me yet. Expect either mania or depression to kick in hard-core in the next day or...
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kagome can stand up by herself now! it's so cool watching her grow up before my eyes. katana weighs 30 lbs & is almost 38 inches tall now!! my little babies...becoming big girls.

off to pensacola one week from today. hooray. beaches & bikini babes & blunts all the way.

this friday is the big 40+ dj party at the station in bham. i really...
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i spent today packing & cleaning. tomorrow i'll buy groceries & take the kids to the dr. saturday i'm planning on going out if i don't leave early to go to pensacola. i might wait & go next saturday, though. still deciding. next saturday would be a lot easier & give me a chance to receive some packages & things i'm expecting, but of course...
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life...i wonder...will it take me down under? i don't know.

that's a quote from a song...just felt like sharing...

today was long & boring. i didn't really do anything. i never even left the house except to check the mail. there was nothing of importance in the mailbox, though, just sales papers. blah.

the kitty, Tenseiga, is adjusting quite well. he loves to be held...
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Things are crazy for me lately. I'm confused about love & life. I know what my goals are, but I don't know the best course...I got my kitten yesterday. I'm a little worried about him right now. As far as I know, he has yet to "make". Poor kitty. I feel like my nerves are stressed to the max these days. I am seriously considering...
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saturday night i went out & had a lot of fun. i got to hang out with 9 friends! that is rare for me these days, but i loved it. yesterday was katana's birthday party. 5 of my friends showed up including: Billy, Chelsey, Nikki, Trey, & to my surprise Ryan. i was so shocked when Ryan & his mom showed up that i had...
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ay caramba! yeah, today totally sucked. i didn't get my check & my lawyer decided not give me back any of my retainer. $1700 goes POOF! fuck. my car went dead in the middle of driving through Northport & the starter has been fucked up for over a month. geez. i guess i can't ignore it anymore. i found out that my car insurance payment...
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