louisiana

I am in some bunch of pain right now. My wisdom teeth are hurting me so terribly, that my whole head hurts, and I seem to be developing an ear infection because of it. I'll have to see a doctor about it when I get back to NY. As I kid, I suffered from ear infections a lot, and in fifth grade I lost my hearing entirely. It returned after about a year, and now I have decent hearing with partial hearing loss in both ears. Because of this, ear infections terrify me. Not being able to hear when I was a kid was difficult, and embarrassing. I can get some antibiotics to do away with this infection, but there's no way I'll be able to afford to get these wisdom teeth out any time soon. I'd try to get them out myself, but everyone keeps telling me I'm not going to be able to do it. It really hurts though. I hate to be a cry baby about it, but it's causing me constant pain, and now this ear infection is making the whole situation that much more painful. I want to go to a doctor, to an oral surgeon. But I don't have any money, so it's gunna have to wait. Let this not kill me before I turn pink, haha.

Sorry to be such a negative nancy. My holiday in Florida has been stressful, and chilly. A lot of the stress comes from not having money. I keep telling myself "don't worry so much, money isn't real". But I'm drowning, so it's really getting hard not to be worried.

I was going to go up for a visit with Amaye and her boyfriend today, but the car I was meant to borrow vanished, which was a megabummer. Coincidentally, I've already met her boyfriend, because I modeled for him a few weeks ago.



Isn't he something? I so do enjoy film. I wish I'd gotten to spend the day with them. I swear Amaye, someday we'll meet in real life!

Back to NY on Wednesday. Which will be nice. I want to see Auriga, seeing her cheers me up so. She's an amazing human being. That's the thing about this site; despite my ups and downs, and despite my frustrations, I really do love this community, and I absolutely love some of the people I've met. I have good, supportive friends on here, and I am thankful for all of you.

Hope you're all staying safe and warm, my little buttercakes.