louisiana

I am single.

Let me give an update of on what else is going on. My family lived through a car crash- thank you to everyone who had them in their thoughts. Estranged though we may be, when I got the call that it happened it broke my heart. I got a graphic description of the event that's been replaying in my head since it happened. It happened on Friday in another part of the world. I was here in NY, in figure sculpture, working on a standing piece. I didn't get the call until around two. I know it doesn't make any sense- but I was feeling angry that I didn't feel it happen when it did. That I could exist so far away and not at all feel or know the very moment of smashing metal and blood and concussions. It made me feel out of control.

I wish I could everyone I love, all the time, and keep everyone safe.

My boy and I put a break on our two year relationship. I'm here in his house now, he's at work. The reasons for this break up are complex (as always), but there isn't bad blood. We need some time to be apart. I don't know what will happen next, but I'm doing my very best to remain optimistic. I am afraid of losing my wonderful cat. I'll find a way to see her. The idea of my boyfriend seeing someone else doesn't bother me. What does bother me is another woman falling in love with my cat, sleeping in what was my bed, using the piles and piles and piles of bdsm paraphernalia that him and I are in joint ownership of. Ouch- my fragile little self. I need to try not to get distracted by these things though.


I have a ton of school work this week. We'll see where it goes. I hope everyone is ok, and safe and happy and healthy.

If you can't make it to this one, let me know and I'll put you on the guest list for the album release party