lostinshadowz

I began to tour journals first time i really have and could not beleive how many of the pretty ladies here have such bad days and what not...

Myself yea my life sucks in a marriage that goes in circles high blood pressure bi polar shit what ever the hell that is 40 percent disabled veteran with hearing loss (comes in handy as an excuse when not wanting to hear the wife but i still love her) and now diabetes?

I was a picture of health even though i got out of the navy with a bad wrist injury but since then my health and my body is going to shit and whats worse i lost the will to change i dont take my metformin or my bloodpressure medicine.

I have a daughter 3 years old should make me want to get healthy. Im not suicidal dont have a deathwish but truly lost the will to change. Doesnt matter much no one in my family on the male side has lived past 64 years.

I adore some of you and i dont talk or havent talked much but at same time i get so mad or jealous i guess is a better word for it.

Not jealous im not a woman LOL no just thinking of guys these ladies are with go to the mall see a nice chick with a well i assume prettyboy and just want to pound him.

im now 300lbs being 6'5 helps distribute the weight just 4 years ago i was 227

Have you ever gotten into a rut going in circles and cant get out...

I have wrote poetry... if you go to poetry.com and look up charley bailey that will be my poems...

Anyways enough of the rant i feel better now and hope you are all doing well.

They tell me to give up my soda fuck it diabetes youll have to take me a piece at a time.... (LOL AND IT WILL TAKE ME A PEICE AT A TIME MUAHAHHAHAHAH)