hello to all once again. I feel as if i may be wasting my time with this whole stupid journal thing.....I mean, does anybody even read these? I know Crystal does......It does help in a soothing relaxation kinda thing. I am thinking about leaving everything behind and going away. I've really got nothing to stay here for. I'm looking at other areas for apartments and jobs, but nothing really seems worth it anyways. Whatever, nothing seems to go right, and just when they do, it takes only a minute to fuck everything up. I'll write back soon. Sorry to disappoint. Later. 
Seems you're not in the best of times right now and I hope things pick up for you real soon
no moving to AZ till we hang out!!