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Sunday May 01, 2005

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I talk about it and think about it almost on a daily basis, but I doubt I'd ever do it. Telling people in public about it is a way of getting attention, so I now realize this and label myself as 'hypocrite' even though I didn't do it intentionally. This is a journal tho, and I got it to help myself somewhat and it has worked to a degree. I have four issues: 1) I need help. 2) I need friends. 3) I need to get out of my apartment more often. 4) I don't have any family here. 5) I am lonely.

Issue #1: I am getting help smile I have been on the drug prozac for approx. one month now, and I think I'm experiencing varied results with it. The anxiety and pressure has dissappeared from work, but I still don't feel motivated to care about what I'm doing to my body both physicaly and mentally.

Issue #2: I have almost forgotten the fact that I'm not allowed on the camping trip, and am thinking of different ways to meet people. I'm more and more pushing myself to just go to a show one of these nights and see what happens there. ???

Issue #3: Getting out of the house...for what tho? Where to go?

Issue #5: I am skipping number 4 untill after this issue so that I can post pics. I have been lonely for quite some time now and I just view this issue as being related to the first and second issues.

Issue#4: I love my family so much!! The thing is, they are thousands of miles away frown frown frown Only my father remains in Kansas and I have such a deep rooted hatred for that place that I would rather not see him than set foot in that place.

Here are some pics! biggrin I've been saying for four months now that I will post these....long overdue eh? hehe

Ok, this is my Aunt Despina

This is some of my fathers side of the family during Christmas

This is me in the city of Thessaloniki

And here's some scenic pics

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Ok, well, I said at the beggining of the day taht I was going to update five times....three down, two more to go.
shadyvito:
Hang in there man, you're not alone with the way you feel.
May 1, 2005
taurie:
Yayyyyyy!!! We're both dorks and we both love Nirvana!! We should get together and have a dork party. We can call it 'Dorkfest 2005' tongue . I'm so lame frown . Sorry.

Thanks for the comment lover. smile





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