lostidentity

Today I was wondering that if I do end up on meds, do I have to tell work about it? and again, if I am on meds, am I going to have any episodes? I haven't flipped out on anyone, and I don't really ever want to. I'm thinking about bailing, but then I just think about my best friend who's on some meds and I'm like, he's not a psycho, so it should be just fine. Its a good thing that I feel comfortable with my doctor even though I visit him like once a year. Just imagine if I had like intestinal cancer or something that required treatment just because I fucked it all up by not telling anyone I havn't been doing a #2 right for the past six years. God, and you know what the most embarassing cute thing about it is? I've been dying to get like $20 extra bucks so that I can go to this produce place which supposedly has a big discount on things. For some reason, I think if I introduce more fruit and veggies into my diet, it will change something. Fuck even if it doesn't , I've had the biggest craving for some watermelons. I'm actually seriously considering becoming a 'softcore' vegitarian, not for diet purposes, but because there's so much hormone shit thats in meat, and I find that disgusting. There aren't too many veggies that I don't like. Brussel sprouts and okra are pretty much the only ones I wont touch