Because I"m an oddball, I update my journal once every week, and then twice in twenty minutes.
So, since we all suffer from some type of OCD, it just doesn't show on some, I will break down right before your eyes. Spill my guts right onto your plate, and just make an ass out of me. Because the pills didn't work, the coffin is so far fetched an idea, that I think drinking anti-freeze in the middle of the night won't work, I 'll just sit here and type and talk to you folks, my friends (group hug) and wonder where the past few years of life has taken me and how I've shaped myself to be this egg, ignored in the real world and not taken seriously. BUt one fuckup, and I will get slammed. Sit on this egg called (name of LostIdentity and no I will not reveal my name because I know someone in the real world is reading this and knows me) and keep me warm cause I would do anything for you....won't you keep me warm? God its so depressing waking up everyday to silence. ITs like this is jail, but I'm not surrounded by skinheads with swastikas threatening to kill me if I don't blow. You see, that pic on my profile is from THE WALL, but its the only thing I've found so far to express my true mood, and its been constant like that for years now.
I've met a couple of you and you didn't run away. When will I see you again? I haven't had that uncontrolable laughter in over a year. You know, the one where someone picks up a cup thats been sittin on a coaster for half an hour and is stuck on the bottom of the cup but the person drinking doesn't even notice until they tilt the cup for a drink. That would make me laugh so hard that I"d fart and pee and the embarassment of me laughing so hard at something so trivial and simple makes others think I'm weird. Yes I have actually thought of drinking anti-freeze, but sometimes when in a conversation with two other people, I just stare into nothing and am in awe of our own exestance.
I am a very beautiful person. Don't take me for my outside looks because I am deceiving. Love me because I love you very berry much
So, since we all suffer from some type of OCD, it just doesn't show on some, I will break down right before your eyes. Spill my guts right onto your plate, and just make an ass out of me. Because the pills didn't work, the coffin is so far fetched an idea, that I think drinking anti-freeze in the middle of the night won't work, I 'll just sit here and type and talk to you folks, my friends (group hug) and wonder where the past few years of life has taken me and how I've shaped myself to be this egg, ignored in the real world and not taken seriously. BUt one fuckup, and I will get slammed. Sit on this egg called (name of LostIdentity and no I will not reveal my name because I know someone in the real world is reading this and knows me) and keep me warm cause I would do anything for you....won't you keep me warm? God its so depressing waking up everyday to silence. ITs like this is jail, but I'm not surrounded by skinheads with swastikas threatening to kill me if I don't blow. You see, that pic on my profile is from THE WALL, but its the only thing I've found so far to express my true mood, and its been constant like that for years now.
I've met a couple of you and you didn't run away. When will I see you again? I haven't had that uncontrolable laughter in over a year. You know, the one where someone picks up a cup thats been sittin on a coaster for half an hour and is stuck on the bottom of the cup but the person drinking doesn't even notice until they tilt the cup for a drink. That would make me laugh so hard that I"d fart and pee and the embarassment of me laughing so hard at something so trivial and simple makes others think I'm weird. Yes I have actually thought of drinking anti-freeze, but sometimes when in a conversation with two other people, I just stare into nothing and am in awe of our own exestance.
I am a very beautiful person. Don't take me for my outside looks because I am deceiving. Love me because I love you very berry much
VIEW 6 of 6 COMMENTS
masaba:
FTW that's what i say, i know how ya feel
walker:
I am a good person for people to meet, but that's because I am so fat and my knee so bad I can't run.