lostidentity

Update #4 of today:

I just commented in some peoples journals at random, yea thats how much time I have. You ever see that merryl lynch commercial where they are basically scanning a bunch of peoples heads and listening to their thoughts? Thats what it felt like looking through peoples updated journals. I can understand how sometimes you don't want anyone to look at your...
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I talk about it and think about it almost on a daily basis, but I doubt I'd ever do it. Telling people in public about it is a way of getting attention, so I now realize this and label myself as 'hypocrite' even though I didn't do it intentionally. This is a journal tho, and I got it to help myself somewhat and it has...
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Well, when you're a dork, nothing much happens unless you yourself force it to. I think I will buy a gun soon and just get it over with. Not for attention mind you, but just to get rid of the pain. I don't understand why I have to live with this depressive feeling in my heart 75% of the time. Do you guys experience this...
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geez, I feel like updating five times today. I'm going to tell you everything, every little nook and cranny. Hopefully I'll have the motivation to do laundry, get a haircut, print out my pictures from Greece, and maybe actually pay some bills, like my rent...lol

I seem to have forgoten that it is Easter tomorrow, well, for us Orthodox Christians anyway. I havn't been to a mass in over three years. Its a very beautiful service for those of you who aren't familiar with it. From what I've been told, Easter will always be during the week of the Passover, in case any of you are wondering why we celebrate...
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I feel so I think I've finally figured out why I'm not allowed to go. Because of my comments, they think that I believe there will actually be groping, touching, etc. at this camping trip. Or, the fact that I'm new to the group and made myself right at home. Or, maybe both.

Someone said "there's probably more to it than we know" If you...
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I got kicked off the camping trip cause I was being silly. Had I known this, I wouldn't have said a word. Not one word. This is so devastating

I swear, I think I'm almost to the edge. Nothing seems worth living for anymore, except the camping trip!! WOOHOOO!!!

Can someoen explain to me how paypal works? why can't you use a credit/debit card?

Update. Who should I call tonight?

Tax returnd came today! I've also been approved for my vacation days which include but are not limited to the 14, 15, and I think the 20 of July but I'm not sure of that last date. Let me celebate, I mean, celebrate by rubbing one out five times in a row. Anyone got some material that will keep me going for that long?