lorybeth

well i thought i would update everybody. things have gotten a lot better!! i am FINALLY out of the financial hole i was in, and that feels fucking amazing. i cant even try to explain. i know i wont let that happen again, i guess i just forgot what it felt like and i was WAY too careless.
next thing that has me in a good mood. well ive been doing a lot of reflecting/thinking and ive realized that i am 100% crazy for my guy. he is amazing and i cant think of a time when i was this happy. i hate him being this far away from me (since he's on that ship..blah), but knowing that i am thinkin of him and he is thinkin of me..idk it just makes me feel like it will all be okay. no other guy matters to me. man!! it feels great!!!! the only thing that scares me is him leaving to go back to the states. i know that i can be faithful to him, and i just want to show him that im not like his x. i dont blame him for being kinda nervous about doing a long distance relationship because his x cheated on him but he'll see that im not like her.
well anyways......life is looking up...and i redyed my hair!! yay