loretta

I'm missing my old life. When I didn't have to live with my family, or adjust to them. When I could be myself all day long. It really drains my energy here and also the lust of doing something.
Just waiting for the time to pass. Yeah I know I'm in a low period and that it will get better. Need to get rid of some stress and also learn how to be happy here. There's just to much going on around me.
I'm even starting to lose my excitement about starting to study this fall. And I was really excited about that before.
I really badly need a job. If I got that I could aford to move out again and then relax again as well.

Well at least I'm getting to know my brother and sister really good again. They're great. But also none of them are very happy either. But then again the environment at home isn't the best right now. So they could probobly use some living alone as well. I think my parents might have some dificulties adjusting to us growing up. At least my dad do my mom is kinda easy about it. But her mood swings alot instead. And she see's us more like friends and so it goes out on us. But that's better than pretend it's not there anyway.
This is why I have problems with living with them. Ianalyze to much and then also lets everything get to me. Every feeling that comes from anyone. And I care to much.
It's ok if I live with just one person. But if there's more then I get crazy, anyway if the others would have some problems getting along or so. And when it's so close relationships.

had to get little of this out.

I bought a christmas gift for Jiji (my cat) today. A new toy, he's been so bored lately and a new toy always cheers him up, (who doesn't it cheer up?). To bad I can't give it to him until christmas. hehe I will wrap it for him and all so he can have some fun time opening it, under watch ofcourse so he wont eat anything bad or so.