lorensoth

I feel sort of strange today...

Not sick, or depressed or angry or happy... its a strange feeling I cannot quite describe, a mix of melancholy and regret or something. Its hard to pin point, but it might have something to do with scanning so many pictures from my childhood.


(I'm the one with the hat on, the one laughing is my younger brother)

I always find it so strange how when I look at pictures of when I was a boy, there was no way I could have ever even imagined what I would end up being now. I seem so care free and I sometimes wonder if I could somehow get that feeling back.

I also find many pictures of my Grandmothers and Great Aunts, all of whom have passed away... I suppose thats why I enjoy photography so much, its like being able to catch a moment in time, that will one day be a memory of long ago.

I have joined something rather silly too, mostly because of my younger brother Dailybooth You use your web cam to take a picture of yourself then comment on it or just post a picture. Its a bit silly but since I am at this computer so often I thought what the hell, might as well keep track of this madness.

I am really trying to stay positive, I have been listening to relaxing music and trying to get myself ready for this up and coming hellish week. This time of the year is pretty terrible, work is so slow that I am doing more busy labor work. But its better then not having a job, and after this week comes Thanksgiving and a short work week.

I have a lot of things I need to try and do, but I find it so hard to get myself to do them... hopefully I will feel a little better soon.