lorensoth

Day 7 of missing Amy

I probably would have blogged yesterday... but for most of the day all I could do was sleep.

I wonder why it always ends up this way, just when I think I am happy something happens suddenly and I am alone and depressed again. I tell myself that when something... when something bad happens to a person, the only thing left for them to do is to find a way to overcome it.

People suffer worse tragedy then heartbreak in there life.

But I feel so empty... maybe because I let my guard down again... I really believed that she would never hurt me like this. That she would never intentionally cause me grief or sadness... but life will often prove you wrong about what you think.

For the past week I have felt almost automatic... because though I was going to work, doing errands... my mind always seemed to be so far away from myself.

The night is alive with wind and rain tonight... Tropical Storm Hanna passed over the area, just some wind and rain really... but it felt like the air was charged with energy.

I have been keeping myself distracted, by watching Anime on Veoh and watching a series called Firefly, which unfortunatly only ran for one season. Today the Beta for Warhammer Online is starting up, and I am hoping to spend much of my time lost in a fantasy world. I would play the Warhammer table top game as a boy, so it is good to go back to it in some way...

I can only hope I will have sweet dreams tonight...