lorensoth

Funny how there is always a mixture of good with a mixture of bad in life...

On the plus side, I finally had sex with the girl I have been drooling over for about five years now...
We have been spending a lot of time together over the past month or so, and I have been slowly getting her clothes off and making her feel more "comfortable"... on the negative side she has been having a lot going on with not only me but other aspects of her life (ex-b/f, job, new apartment, wanting to get away)

The biggest kick to the nuts is of course her not being sure if she is a lesbian or not... I really don't know what to tell her on that subject other then if she really does like being with me in every way shape and form then she probably isn't a lesbian... so of course she throws the fact that she has not been in a serious lesbian relationship and wants to try and figure her head out before things get any more serious between her and I... or something like that...

I am hoping to talk with her tonight about it online (seems its easier for her to talk about uncomfortable things online, plus her cell phone bill is past due so no phone). But I will be in rough shape this evening... my grandmothers wake is in one hour, I will be a pallbearer, and the funeral is tomorrow morning....

The bad seem to be beating the shit out of the good right now... I can only hope I will be able to keep myself together for the next few days...