Well needless to say Im doing a little better now
I never deal with pets passing away very well, and I probally never will. Life just keeps going on and you cant really let grief control you to much or you just get left in the dust.
I am very slowly getting use to my current job, its become pretty automatic and its not really that hard to do all in all. I only wish I was doing something that required me to think a bit more, but oh well. Ive been trying to organize my time better, for a long time its just been doing whatever whenever and that really dosent help much considering I have limited free time now, having a full time job and all.
Im just starting it so I am slacking on weekends a bit, but I should be able to keep myself on it once I get going. Its just simple stuff like taking a walk every day, putting aside some time to clean my room each day, and making sure I eat something decent during the day too. Sounds easy but I always manage to talk myself out of stuff, the eating better means going to the grocery store, something I really dont like doing because there are usually so many people there. The excersize/walking isnt so bad, I just need to keep telling myself its something Im doing for myself, and simply keep at it. Though I dont have any "excersize" clothes to speak of, so Im really just walking around in my jeans and a t-shirt
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I had also considered getting a bike that I could ride for excersize, but the prices on those are pretty crazy, and I dont have alot of money as is. Besides that I need to make appointments to see a bunch of doctors (which i dont want to do) Skin Dr., Dentist, Medical Dr., Eye Dr. so that will be alot of cash gone to just to see them.
My major problem has been just getting myself out there, just yesterday I got in my car and drove around with the intention of doing a bunch of things, but I could hardly get myself to do them because I didnt want to be around any people and didnt feel comfortable (aka talking to someone at a local community collage, going food shopping, going clothes shopping) One of my major faults I suppose is that its hard for me to go out anywhere like that without any company, I dont know why that is but it seems to be one of many problems I have with going out anywhere to do something specific.
Guess I dont really like being seen as a bachlor looking for food and clothes and trying to go back to school or something. Or maybe I just dont like being seen in general, but Ill have to get over that if Im going to progress towards some of the goals I have in mind. I guess recently Im just in a bit of an anti-social funk of sorts, and hopefully it will pass soon.
On a side note, I am trying to take pictures of random stuff again as my so called "hobby"
I never deal with pets passing away very well, and I probally never will. Life just keeps going on and you cant really let grief control you to much or you just get left in the dust.
I am very slowly getting use to my current job, its become pretty automatic and its not really that hard to do all in all. I only wish I was doing something that required me to think a bit more, but oh well. Ive been trying to organize my time better, for a long time its just been doing whatever whenever and that really dosent help much considering I have limited free time now, having a full time job and all.
Im just starting it so I am slacking on weekends a bit, but I should be able to keep myself on it once I get going. Its just simple stuff like taking a walk every day, putting aside some time to clean my room each day, and making sure I eat something decent during the day too. Sounds easy but I always manage to talk myself out of stuff, the eating better means going to the grocery store, something I really dont like doing because there are usually so many people there. The excersize/walking isnt so bad, I just need to keep telling myself its something Im doing for myself, and simply keep at it. Though I dont have any "excersize" clothes to speak of, so Im really just walking around in my jeans and a t-shirt
.I had also considered getting a bike that I could ride for excersize, but the prices on those are pretty crazy, and I dont have alot of money as is. Besides that I need to make appointments to see a bunch of doctors (which i dont want to do) Skin Dr., Dentist, Medical Dr., Eye Dr. so that will be alot of cash gone to just to see them.
My major problem has been just getting myself out there, just yesterday I got in my car and drove around with the intention of doing a bunch of things, but I could hardly get myself to do them because I didnt want to be around any people and didnt feel comfortable (aka talking to someone at a local community collage, going food shopping, going clothes shopping) One of my major faults I suppose is that its hard for me to go out anywhere like that without any company, I dont know why that is but it seems to be one of many problems I have with going out anywhere to do something specific.
Guess I dont really like being seen as a bachlor looking for food and clothes and trying to go back to school or something. Or maybe I just dont like being seen in general, but Ill have to get over that if Im going to progress towards some of the goals I have in mind. I guess recently Im just in a bit of an anti-social funk of sorts, and hopefully it will pass soon.
On a side note, I am trying to take pictures of random stuff again as my so called "hobby"