In less then 5 hours I will have been alive for 27 years (July 7th, 5:33am).
...its strange how I don't really feel anything anymore on this day. I know once I was always happy it was coming, and knew I would get lots of presents and cake and ice cream.
Now its simply another day to me for the most part, I have no friends to celebrate with, and I don't expect to get anything at all. I can only think of allot of regrets that I have on this day, about all the mistakes Ive made, of all the time Ive wasted over these 27 years.
It has taken me to long to finally try and get my life together, but I try very hard every day to remain hopeful that I can change myself for the better... even when I feel this alone I try. The only plus for today is that I get to see my extended family, something I haven't done since Easter probably, and it will be good to be with people on a day like this, for me anyway.
I should do something for myself today... but it feels rather pathetic when your the only one who seems to know its your Birthday, which is being overshadowed by this "Live Earth" deal now. For the rest of my life I will remember "Back in 07, when Live Earth was held". That is if I live to be much older anyway... life is anything but predictable.
I have bought two books that might help me deal with things some, before I set down the hard path that will be going back to school. "Introducing Sociology" by Richard Osborne and "The Naked Ape" by Desmond Morris should set me down an interesting road in learning about this ever changing world of ours.
For now I must sleep, I can only hope for a good day...
...its strange how I don't really feel anything anymore on this day. I know once I was always happy it was coming, and knew I would get lots of presents and cake and ice cream.
Now its simply another day to me for the most part, I have no friends to celebrate with, and I don't expect to get anything at all. I can only think of allot of regrets that I have on this day, about all the mistakes Ive made, of all the time Ive wasted over these 27 years.
It has taken me to long to finally try and get my life together, but I try very hard every day to remain hopeful that I can change myself for the better... even when I feel this alone I try. The only plus for today is that I get to see my extended family, something I haven't done since Easter probably, and it will be good to be with people on a day like this, for me anyway.
I should do something for myself today... but it feels rather pathetic when your the only one who seems to know its your Birthday, which is being overshadowed by this "Live Earth" deal now. For the rest of my life I will remember "Back in 07, when Live Earth was held". That is if I live to be much older anyway... life is anything but predictable.
I have bought two books that might help me deal with things some, before I set down the hard path that will be going back to school. "Introducing Sociology" by Richard Osborne and "The Naked Ape" by Desmond Morris should set me down an interesting road in learning about this ever changing world of ours.
For now I must sleep, I can only hope for a good day...
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Dave Alexander from The Stooges
D. Boon from The Minutemen
John Wilkes Booth
Kurt Cobain
Peter Ham from Badfinger
Jimi Hendrix
Joseph Merrick (The Elephant Man)
Brian Jones from The Rolling Stones
Janis Joplin
Reggie Lewis from Boston Celtics
Jim Morrison
Your life is yours to control. If you believe that your birthday was overshadowed by another event, then it was. It you believe your birthday was another step along the path of your ever improving life - then it is.
Life is unpredictable, so enjoy every moment you have. Talk to people, make friends - get out there and live (as always, easier said than done).
PS - stay away from 140 proof rum