lorensoth

In less then 5 hours I will have been alive for 27 years (July 7th, 5:33am).

...its strange how I don't really feel anything anymore on this day. I know once I was always happy it was coming, and knew I would get lots of presents and cake and ice cream.

Now its simply another day to me for the most part, I have no friends to celebrate with, and I don't expect to get anything at all. I can only think of allot of regrets that I have on this day, about all the mistakes Ive made, of all the time Ive wasted over these 27 years.

It has taken me to long to finally try and get my life together, but I try very hard every day to remain hopeful that I can change myself for the better... even when I feel this alone I try. The only plus for today is that I get to see my extended family, something I haven't done since Easter probably, and it will be good to be with people on a day like this, for me anyway.

I should do something for myself today... but it feels rather pathetic when your the only one who seems to know its your Birthday, which is being overshadowed by this "Live Earth" deal now. For the rest of my life I will remember "Back in 07, when Live Earth was held". That is if I live to be much older anyway... life is anything but predictable.

I have bought two books that might help me deal with things some, before I set down the hard path that will be going back to school. "Introducing Sociology" by Richard Osborne and "The Naked Ape" by Desmond Morris should set me down an interesting road in learning about this ever changing world of ours.

For now I must sleep, I can only hope for a good day...