lordkalkin

Ok, been a while since making an entry, but it doesn't especially matter as no one reads this anyway. A couple of weeks ago, I got a reply to the personal ad I put on Disinfo's personal page. The girl seemed really cool; we had alot in common; she was even ok with the open relationship. I was supposed to meet her at Zot'z last Tuesday (Xmas eve-eve), and she didn't show. She said that she had gotten unexpectedly called into work, but she wanted to reschedule. That Friday, I was in Zot'z again, and got stood up again. This time, I don't know why, and havne't heard from her since. I've pretty much given the whole thing up for lost, but I'm still hoping to get a reply to the last email I sent her, asking her to tell me that she was no longer interested is that was the case. I
I would have liked to at least made friends with someone new, so I feel sucky that the whole thing just did a smokey disappearing act. I've still got a hope in the back of my mind that she'll get in touch because I try to be optimistic, but I'm trying to mostly let it go and not worry about it.
The mystical exercises I've been doing have been interesting. I've gone through two phases of one exercise which is supposed to demonstrate how the mind can prove anything given to it to prove, so any belief can be substantiated. I won't say that i've learned any cosmic lessons yet, but programming yourself tp believe that good things happen, then watching them happen can be fun.
Tara and I had the most awesome tantric sex the other night. Pot+meditation=awesome sex
That's the formula for the new year.