So, I did the reading I needed to do for tomorrow, but I don't feel like starting Trillian back up. End result: this journal entry.
Today, I decided against a potential romantic path. I think I expected that making that decision would leave me feeling more free somehow. However, I wouldn't say I feel bad about it either. Just neutral. Tara is great, as she has always been, and Q has been a wonderful newness. I'm also glad to be seeing Derrick on a regular basis.
These things are making me think of a goal that I intend to begin work on now. I can't do much with it now, but once my PhD is done, I'll have more freedom of movement, so I want to work on getting things in place.
I am interested in establishing a neo-tribal living situation (and for all of you detractors out there, this is my version of living anarchy). I want a space with a number of adults supporting one another, each with Hir own private space, but access to a common space. Each one contributes to a general pay-the-the-bills fund in whatever way they want. Each one gets some of the surplus to support artistic/creative endeavors. This may sound odd for those who know me, but I'm also interested in raising children in that space, homeschooling them, and socializing them in an environment where contemplation freedom, autonomy, individuality, and anarchy. I want to see a child not exposed to the ugly side of things as normal, but as ugly. In part, I see this as useful because it presses on the adults to exemplify those values, and I see those values as ends in themselves.
I thought this was going to be longer, but that's all I've got now. I did want that out there, though.
Today, I decided against a potential romantic path. I think I expected that making that decision would leave me feeling more free somehow. However, I wouldn't say I feel bad about it either. Just neutral. Tara is great, as she has always been, and Q has been a wonderful newness. I'm also glad to be seeing Derrick on a regular basis.
These things are making me think of a goal that I intend to begin work on now. I can't do much with it now, but once my PhD is done, I'll have more freedom of movement, so I want to work on getting things in place.
I am interested in establishing a neo-tribal living situation (and for all of you detractors out there, this is my version of living anarchy). I want a space with a number of adults supporting one another, each with Hir own private space, but access to a common space. Each one contributes to a general pay-the-the-bills fund in whatever way they want. Each one gets some of the surplus to support artistic/creative endeavors. This may sound odd for those who know me, but I'm also interested in raising children in that space, homeschooling them, and socializing them in an environment where contemplation freedom, autonomy, individuality, and anarchy. I want to see a child not exposed to the ugly side of things as normal, but as ugly. In part, I see this as useful because it presses on the adults to exemplify those values, and I see those values as ends in themselves.
I thought this was going to be longer, but that's all I've got now. I did want that out there, though.