So I've finally decided to take the plunge and become a member of this site. I've been a huge fan of Suicide Girls for years now, but always found reasons to avoid signing up. I've always had thing for rocker and goth girls - there's nothing hotter than a girl with tattoos, piercings, colored hair, and a dominant attitude. So why it took me so long to decide to become a part of this community is beyond me. Anyway, I'm still a newbie on here, so think of this blog post as a sort of an inaugural endeavor. I realize that I have very few followers, so it sort of feels like I'm speaking to an empty auditorium...but who cares? My thoughts need to escape my brain somehow.
After a few hours of browsing the groups, updating my profile, and of course, lusting after the seemingly endless array of beautiful Suicide Girls, I came to few conclusions about the SG community. Firstly, I imagine that being a model or a hopeful comes with its share of difficulties. Mainly, the constant barrage of creeps. I can't imagine how many disturbing messages they all have to sift through on a daily basis. I really hate my gender for that reason. Most women can't walk down the street without some douche yelling at her from his shitty Mustang, so the amount of virtual sexual harassment these ladies must endure on this site is likely increased ten-fold. Along with that, it must take a lot of courage to strip down in front of a camera and have the images tossed into the depths of abysmal void known as the internet, where even the darkest and most terrifying souls can remain anonymous behind a keyboard. I dare not even consider what some people are doing with these images. I'm sure somewhere out there, some undiagnosed psychopath has printouts of Gogo and AnaLee all over their boarded-up apartment, with the eyes cut out and illegible scribbles of red ink all over them. Okay, maybe that's a bit drastic, but you never know, right? It sounded funnier in my head...
Another thing I've noticed is that a vast majority of female members are either SG's or hopefuls, yet they are far outnumbered by the amount of dudes that populate the site. I guess that's to be expected on a website like this. But that got me thinking...Am I just another creep for being here? I mean, I'm not anything like those dudes I mentioned in the previous paragraph. I won't ever try to message or contact a model, or leave creepy comments, they've got enough weirdos doing that already. But still, I can't look at an image set without feeling a bit like a voyeur. And most of these models have spouses or significant others. I wouldn't be cool with my girlfriend posting naked pictures online. And she wouldn't be okay with me being a member of this site...but that's a different story entirely. Let's just hope she doesn't find out!
One final thing that I'd like to discuss is the surprising amount of metalheads, nerds and gamers within this community. I love this! Three groups that I fit into seamlessly. Especially the metalhead part, since I have no one to talk to about this awesome music. None of my friends like it, nor does anyone in my family. I consider myself an "undercover metalhead," which is pretty much what it sounds like. Growing up, I was constantly bullied and cast aside because of my taste in music. Maybe it was because of that, but one day I decided that I didn't need to dress like a death metal fan just because I am one. Today, I still have piercings and one tattoo (sad, I know...I seriously need more), but other than that, I just look like a normal dude. So maybe the group will help me feel less alone in that regard. And the same goes for the gamer and nerd groups. Either that, or I just need new friends...
Well I hope this read wasn't too boring for the few who bothered to read it, if any at all. Feel free to add your thoughts about what I discussed in the comments, if you're so inclined. In the meantime, I need to murder a human trafficker in Far Cry 3. Cheers!
This guy is toast!
