in my quest for survival and peace I end up in this era as a young man struggling to survive fighting against hunger, illness, love, anger, hatred, frustration, betrayal, poverty and the worst the constant search for death but death is not far away death is always next to me waiting for me to just let her do her magic death only embraces me with the love of a mother waiting for her beloved child to go back home
loneliness has become deaths ally the devils most powerful weapon
so, I decided to kill myself today a few days ago I was joking with a friend and I asked him, what do you think is the easiest, painless way to die he replied, Insulin it is proven that an insulin overdose can cause coma or death since then I thought maybe if I overdose Ill just die in my sleep so, I went to a friends house and while he was in the bathroom I stole one of his insulin bottles, which he wont ever notice cause he gets them for free and has a lot a few needles I was ready to leave his house this world
I woke up today gone to work raining sad anxious one of my best days at work selling a lot after work I walked home thinking meditating in sadness realizing Im going back to that empty space called home
it feels cold in here I decided to call all my really good friendssend some e-mails saying hello like a ritual, I was saying goodbye to everyone but, again it happened everyone was busythe typical can I call you later?
No one was thereI never told anyone goodbye but I will tell you know Goodbye farewell loyal reader for death is knocking at my door and I dont want to keep her waiting any longer
loneliness has become deaths ally the devils most powerful weapon
so, I decided to kill myself today a few days ago I was joking with a friend and I asked him, what do you think is the easiest, painless way to die he replied, Insulin it is proven that an insulin overdose can cause coma or death since then I thought maybe if I overdose Ill just die in my sleep so, I went to a friends house and while he was in the bathroom I stole one of his insulin bottles, which he wont ever notice cause he gets them for free and has a lot a few needles I was ready to leave his house this world
I woke up today gone to work raining sad anxious one of my best days at work selling a lot after work I walked home thinking meditating in sadness realizing Im going back to that empty space called home
it feels cold in here I decided to call all my really good friendssend some e-mails saying hello like a ritual, I was saying goodbye to everyone but, again it happened everyone was busythe typical can I call you later?
No one was thereI never told anyone goodbye but I will tell you know Goodbye farewell loyal reader for death is knocking at my door and I dont want to keep her waiting any longer
tahliana:
I really hope that you don't mean what you have just said. Everyone has there ups and downs mate, everyone wants to die at one point. But you HAVE TO REMEMBER THIS, life is a cycle of ups and downs and what today seems like fucking horrible world, will feel like a beuatiful place to be again in a few days/weeks/months, u just have to work out what it is in the world that makes you happy and DO IT. FOrget your life now that is unhappy and CHANGE the things that get you down. move away. Meet new friends who care. So many things. But please, think about that mate, because if you believe in reincarnation, dieing now doesnt relaly mean your soul dissappears. xo Love to you mate.
sjanett:
thanks for your sweet comment on my set! 