I am ashamed to admit it but I miss TV. I don't even have speakers on the computers. There isn't much I want to watch it usually ends up on PBS or the history channel.
Sleeping on an air mattress in a crappy office is not the best arrangement, but at least there is a washroom around the corner to take a bird bath in. So far I have managed not to stink so I guess I'm doing good.
There is a shitty clock radio here that I have been listening to KCRW which is amongst the best radio stations I have ever listened to.
I'm still some what depressed. Much more than I would expect. Maybe its time to go back on meds, but how to get them in a new city with no insurance and no cash. I will make some calls tomorrow.
This AM I woke up to uvula-ting, that thing that middle eastern women do, at the top of there lungs, that sounds like a kid impersonating an Indian. There is a beauty shop across the hall and they were preparing for a wedding. I don't know what was involved but it was noisy.
Yesterday I went to the Getty Museum. I wasn't impressed by the art or the building. The building is huge and seems to hold fewer works than expected. It houses European art up until 1900. I guess it is difficult to collect that time period when countries view the works as national treasures.
I am more of a fan of primitive and modern abstract art particularly Russian constructivism and German expressionism.
I was going to go to the LA Zen center in the AM but the power was off in the "office" all day and night yesterday so it made things just difficult enough for me not to go. I have wanted to get some instruction in meditation since I find it extremely difficult. My mind is not quiet. Not quiet at all.
The job is going well. Not good but well. The guy I work for is very unorganized. Coming from me that means allot. The computer network is cobbled together with antiquated equipment. One machine fucked up the other day and another cannot access the network. There are no CAD standards to follow. If the work he does wasn't so good I would jump ship, but I want to last at least a year, but we will see.
Sleeping on an air mattress in a crappy office is not the best arrangement, but at least there is a washroom around the corner to take a bird bath in. So far I have managed not to stink so I guess I'm doing good.
There is a shitty clock radio here that I have been listening to KCRW which is amongst the best radio stations I have ever listened to.
I'm still some what depressed. Much more than I would expect. Maybe its time to go back on meds, but how to get them in a new city with no insurance and no cash. I will make some calls tomorrow.
This AM I woke up to uvula-ting, that thing that middle eastern women do, at the top of there lungs, that sounds like a kid impersonating an Indian. There is a beauty shop across the hall and they were preparing for a wedding. I don't know what was involved but it was noisy.
Yesterday I went to the Getty Museum. I wasn't impressed by the art or the building. The building is huge and seems to hold fewer works than expected. It houses European art up until 1900. I guess it is difficult to collect that time period when countries view the works as national treasures.
I am more of a fan of primitive and modern abstract art particularly Russian constructivism and German expressionism.
I was going to go to the LA Zen center in the AM but the power was off in the "office" all day and night yesterday so it made things just difficult enough for me not to go. I have wanted to get some instruction in meditation since I find it extremely difficult. My mind is not quiet. Not quiet at all.
The job is going well. Not good but well. The guy I work for is very unorganized. Coming from me that means allot. The computer network is cobbled together with antiquated equipment. One machine fucked up the other day and another cannot access the network. There are no CAD standards to follow. If the work he does wasn't so good I would jump ship, but I want to last at least a year, but we will see.
I hope you feel better soon. I've been able to escape the grasp of depression for probably the past few months- but I find myself getting increasingly irritated with people around me lately, especially my siblings and it isn't fair since they're just being kids. I need to make some changes soon in regards to my living situation.
Maybe you can try that air mattress that's about 2 or 3 feet high that way you aren't so close to the floor when it's time to go to bed. I find it to be somewhat more comfortable.
I've had some really great shows of support and friendship lately.