Title: In The Dark, I Will Tell You About The Sun...
Wow...
That was one hell of a psychotic episode.
Once again, I cracked up. Usually, i'm in control, but every once in awhile something sets it off, and I either become angry then depressed, or just plain depressed.
To answer some inquiries involving a few posts on my journal:
-It didn't start after college. Think further. Much further.
-One cannot rely on oneself to truely define your own being. Let the world tell you what you are, and they just bring you down. Let yourself tell you what you are, and you are suseptible to delusions. The reality is, there is no reliable way to judge who and what you really are.
-I could go to school again, but I have a student loan from the last time I went. Going deeper in debt is too risky. I will not do it until I owe nothing to nobody.
-And yes, travel would be nice. Problem is, I have responsibilities now. Student loan to pay off and whatnot. That trip to Japan will have to wait a decade or two.
No problem though. A decade or two may seem long, but at times I can be very patient.
Meanwhile, to fill in the time....
I'll think of something. I can still work on writing. I hear the best writers are emotional (not to mention they blur sanity and insanity in ways I have yet to feel or comprehend). And there's always people to observe. Maybe i'll finally have these strange humans figured out...
NAW!!!!!!
Wow...
That was one hell of a psychotic episode.
Once again, I cracked up. Usually, i'm in control, but every once in awhile something sets it off, and I either become angry then depressed, or just plain depressed.
To answer some inquiries involving a few posts on my journal:
-It didn't start after college. Think further. Much further.
-One cannot rely on oneself to truely define your own being. Let the world tell you what you are, and they just bring you down. Let yourself tell you what you are, and you are suseptible to delusions. The reality is, there is no reliable way to judge who and what you really are.
-I could go to school again, but I have a student loan from the last time I went. Going deeper in debt is too risky. I will not do it until I owe nothing to nobody.
-And yes, travel would be nice. Problem is, I have responsibilities now. Student loan to pay off and whatnot. That trip to Japan will have to wait a decade or two.
No problem though. A decade or two may seem long, but at times I can be very patient.
Meanwhile, to fill in the time....
I'll think of something. I can still work on writing. I hear the best writers are emotional (not to mention they blur sanity and insanity in ways I have yet to feel or comprehend). And there's always people to observe. Maybe i'll finally have these strange humans figured out...
NAW!!!!!!
mistressrory:
those are some good names...thanks for the ideas... 