Sorry I have not been around much lots going on and have been a little down, I'm feeling better slowly, Easter is very emotional for me because it was the day before we rolled into Iraq, it was something to see there at sunrise thousands of soldiers heads bowed in prayer not all were Christian but no one cared because we were there to support... Read More
Lately i'v been wondering whats been going on
I'v been here before but i don't remember when
and everytime we get to where we're entering
i feel my beliefs and hopes surrendering
but i know, i'll be coming home soon
and yes i know, that i'll be coming home soon
'Cause like the enemies that we are batteling, i am nothing but a human alien... Read More
I feel cold and dead inside, things happening all around and it no longer phases me, friends are dieing, family members are sick, people everywhere are hurting and through all this, I've just stopped caring, its fucked up it should bother me that I no longer care but even that dose not move me, I think something is really wrong
If you guys knew the real me you would hate me. I have done such dark evil things just to live and yet I look back and think why nothing good have really come from survival, everytime I close my eyes I see faces and places, things that happened around me like watching a horror movie I'm powerless... Read More
is there a reason? or is it one of those "you totally deserve it but someone somewhere was a fucking moron and just threw the whole concept out the window" kind of things? like how my husband has started hearing that next to no medals and ribbons will be given to them for this OND shit.
OOOOH i know those moments. like when sabre never filed the paperwork after the last deployment and 90% of them never left. just about everyone was 'locked' in. or if you're my husband "they never lifted the gate to let us escape"
if you happen to think about it and its not to much of a bother 
