longlostsapper

If you guys knew the real me you would hate me. I have done such dark evil things just to live and yet I look back and think why nothing good have really come from survival, everytime I close my eyes I see faces and places, things that happened around me like watching a horror movie I'm powerless to stop it, I just relive it over and over, these last few weeks have been really bad. I wake up scared out of my mind screaming or crying. Its like all that evil I did and saw scared my soul out of me, its like I died over there and my body just doesn't know it yet, I don't know how else to explain it, if your still reading I don't know why its just endless whining from a broken man