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Friday Jun 18, 2004

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I don't know how much longer I can keep up a life of physical pain that causes mental pain, both of which keep me longing for nothing more than simply sleep. I hate to sound like an old man...but take fucking good care of your knees. It has gotten to the point of when I am driving in my car I sometimes hope that someone will just t-bone the side of it as I go through the intersection, giving me an excuse to just have the whole leg amputated or perhaps just do me in completly. I hate to sound like Mr. Melodramatic, but things have not been very bright as of late.

I had to get this MRI scan for my knee today which was pretty fun. Yup, my third one in four years...thank you very much. It is basically like a cat-scan where they put you head first into this tube and all these industrial noises crash all around you for 30 minutes. In that 30 minutes they did about 4 or 5 scans, and each scan has a different "beat" but they all sound like they could be an Orchestral Manuevers in the Dark or Depeche Mode song, sans the singing. I think the last one might have be a song on the new Faint album. One of the heavy "chunk" noises went on for so long that it started to sound like "blow" being said through a distorted voice box surreal ...anyway, it was weird because I had to time to sit, think, and pretend I was in a sterile little coffin for just a little while, and to be honest I was disappointed when the lights came on and they pulled me back out.

Well, this weekend I need to try to bring myself back to life by visiting some friends in the SF and going to see Broken Spindles and Restiform Bodies. It will be the 5th time seing Restiform but they are almost always amazing and I am super excited to see Broken Spindles.

...so yeah, kiss skull kiss

But the lows are so extreme
That the good seems fucking cheap
And it teases you for weeks in its absence
- rilo kiley
VIEW 3 of 3 COMMENTS
nina:
oooohhh joy division.... that would have been the best dream ever!
Jun 19, 2004
emilygee:
One time, while in the X-Ray room after a car accident, I swear to god I spotted the Flux Capacitor in the corner.

Hope you're able to find some relief to the pain you're going through!

How was your weekend?
Jun 21, 2004

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